30th of March, 2026

i'm really tired of thinking about my ex. he broke up with me on march 6th but even though it was almost a month ago i just can't stop thinking about him. losing feelings for people has always been really hard for me; i literally had a crush on the same boy for the entirety of middle school and only spoke to him in person twice. everything reminds me of him now and i hate it, listening to rock/metal music makes me feel weird now. i know that this will take time and things will probably get better but right now it feels like they never will. i'm just so fucking pissed at him and it's exhausting, i wish we could just be friends again but apparently my brain doesn't work like that. i'm just glad that he's a year older than me so he'll graduate before me and i won't have to see him at school during senior year